Just read ...

I did a mistake, a big mistake. I think I ruined my family peace. I took it to a place where it will be destroyed. I realy didn't know, I swear ! It's a place where is supposed to be a better life for all of us.
My husband says that I did a good thing.  Did I ?  Because is not looks like ...

Maybe will be after all, what I know?  This is just the beginning and all beginnings are tough. But i'm getting crazy, cos for the first time  in my life i'm really damn stuck.

Sometimes I want to leave life, and I always wonder why I am not allowed. It's not fair, you know ...   Some of us enjoy the life, I don't...

Keeping a promise !

          Is that a light at the end of the tunnel? Or I am wrong? What if it's just the illusion of a dying man? Sometimes I whisper to myself : "Be strong ! ", but I barely hear me, something is louder then me ... I don't know who, I don't know what ! The BIG question is why ? Why is louder than me?
          None of this would have been important if that voice encouraged me, but now I'm really pissed... It's been like that for a while, and I want all this to be stopped , so I started to shout at me: "Be strong!" , hoping that I will be able to hear me ... But I can't hear myself anymore !
          I didn't give up though,because I AM STRONG ! So I took a mirror, I looked into it and I said again what I say to myself every time, and luckily I managed to lip-read.
          When you continue to ignore those things that you want to escape, will be long gone before you realize, and you will start laugh like nothing bad was happening.
           Therefore face life with a smile, but remember, next time everything will come all over again, when you will be weak.

for YOU !

It.s to much for my soul,
I can.t wait anymore...
You told me you will came from sky,
You promised me that you would try.
When you want to keep your word ?
Look at me:lost in this world !


I never ceased to hope !
I always tryed to cope !
But now there are other times,
My hopes fell, they tryed to climbs...
Just give me peace and let me down,
All I need is a loser crown!